Several months ago I was going through a bout of self doubt (yes, I am a poet and don't know it). These are times I have learned to treasure, although at the time they can be excruciating. This particular bout had to do with feeling as though I was depriving my children because they are not 'up' on the latest music trends, fashion icons and brands, tv shows, and movies. It pains me to even say it now, as I can see clearly how it's just not me to think those types of things, but that self doubt is a pretty sneaky fella. I felt tumultuous inside to the point of needing to verbally erupt. My husband is a great listener :)
After erupting quite nicely, I felt better. Sadly, the relief was only temporary, as I had not made an internal change. During the next playdate with self doubt, came the thought, "It's not in my scope of work to educate my children in the ways of the world. That's not my business. I am not comfortable there and do not belong in that space." Amazing. Not in scope of work. What a relief. A lasting relief I might add.
I discovered that as a mother I need an attitude. An attitude that would see me through all the nay sayers of the world, the comments, judgments and criticisms of others, the hushed whispers of gossip that come when you choose to walk your own path and not follow the crowd. Even more importantly, I would need an attitude that could withstand the self doubt that comes when others question with the intent of helping me see my ways are just plain goody two-shoes, and I need to lighten up. You see it's not other people that are the problem. It is my very own special talent of being able to doubt myself so incredibly soundly, and to the core. That is the problem. I have found that many women share this special talent with me, and it is a great hinderance to the rising generation.
There is a force that is hard at work on families today. This force is especially diligent in efforts to immerse children in things of the world. These things have no business being in our children's lives. They have no business in our lives. They are meant to lead away, to cause straying in the most precise, deliberate, and dangerous ways. They are subtle, sneaky, and difficult to detect. The slow and steady steps toward these things are seemingly unnoticeable in our daily lives, and yet they creep us ever closer to the point of destruction.
What is in your scope of work?